I still haven't asked my dad if he could pay for my next driving lesson. I'm actually not sure I could even keep paying for them myself after that. So I'm starting to question if I should even have this test. Maybe I should just cancel the test and start my plan a little early. Perhaps that would be best. Or perhaps that's just the depression talking. It's hard to tell which voice is mine and which isn't. Do I really believe that, or am I just being self-destructive again? I don't even know.
One thing I do know for sure is that Jess is coming down later. We originally made plans to get together tomorrow but things changed and we decided to push it forward to today. I think having her around will give me the courage to talk to dad about stuff because then I have someone who'll be there if it goes wrong. I'm also going to help her out with some forms that she needs to fill out. If there's one thing I know about, it's forms. I can even do my taxes without any problems. Speaking of which, I really need to go through my finances. It's been a good few months so there's a lot of transactions to process. That should be fun.
For now though I'm going to do the little bit of work I have to get done and clean around my room a bit. It's incredible how messy such a small space can get. Especially when you don't do all that much. Rubbish is weird.