Thursday, 6 October 2016

I Work Too Hard

I'm not going to lie to you folks this is written in advance. It is still written on the 6th but it's currently quarter past midnight and I just finished up working. That's right folks; for the second day in a row I was working until past midnight. Actually yesterday I was working until about 1 or 2 in the morning. I had nothing better to do so I decided to finish up a job I had left over.

I don't mind all the work. I feel I need to get that out of the way; I'm not complaining about having a lot of work. Freelancers like myself need a lot of work. I'm pretty pleased with the fact that I've earned around $250 in the past three days. That's fucking GREAT (like America will be under Trump #MAGA...sorry couldn't resist.)

What's not so great (like America under Hilary...okay I'll stop now. Personally I think both candidates suck and there is no lesser evil this time) is that my work ethic is actually a little too insane. There was a time when people used to think I was lazy. I can't say I blame them. I mean; I wake up at 11AM. I eat junk food. I barely ever leave my house. I only volunteer one afternoon a week. I don't blame people for thinking I'm lazy.

But do you know what else I do? I go to bed at 3AM. I eat junk food because I work too hard to take care of myself. I only have time to volunteer one afternoon a week and doing so just means I have to work even harder when I get home. I work so fucking hard that I don't know what's going to kill me first; my diet or exhaustion. Will I die of a heart attack or will I just fall asleep one day and not wake up? I suppose time will tell.

I need to take better care of myself. I need to take more breaks. I need to start cooking for myself again. I need to have better control of my diet.

I'm working myself to death.

I'm working too hard.

I need to pace myself better.

I need to take care of myself.

I'd just like to end with a giant "Fuck you" to anyone who thinks I'm lazy. Just fuck you. Fuck you right in the ass with a rake.

You tell em Haunter
I don't mean to swear so much but damn I'm fucking tired.

On the plus side I am planning on buying a new laptop on Black Friday so I'm certainly not going to complain about the extra money!


I'm gonna go listen to heavy metal now. That always perks me up.


  1. Good to have the work and the money but it's the worry of the slow times that drive you on, take care of yourself in good and bad times!

  2. I hope you get a break for some much-needed R & R soon!

  3. What's the point in working if you're killing yourself doing it. You need an outside interest, a hobby that's not technology based (so you can't count catching pokemon).

  4. Congrats, glad the hard work is paying off! But get some rest.

  5. Black metal is perfect for zoning out.

    It is good that you have work that you manage to get into deeply enough to work on into the night. Pacing yourself is good, though. I mean, I have had to learn to know when to stop.

    I really hope you find that balance someday!

  6. This reads a bit like a breakdown post. Is it?
    Focussing all you got on work isn't sustainable. Focussing all you got on personal health isn't sustainable either, as weird as that sounds. Balance is. Hard to maintain, sure, but it lets you get away with living longer.
    But you know this. I'm still gonna tell you though: go to bed.

    (Also, missed your blog's birthday ~10 days ago. Belated congratulations! Five years, and still going strong.)


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