Monday, 24 March 2014

Working Out The Problem

I've finally realised just why I became so apprehensive about writing again. I write my blog of course (though that's more touch and go than ever really) but I don't write in Immortal Space as much as I'd like. That kinda bums me out and depresses me too. I'm supposed to be a writer/starving artist. I'm supposed to be the kinda guy who has a part time job to support his writing habits. But I'm not. Partly because I don't have a part time job and also because of my mental state. That probably plays a bigger part. I'd be pretty cool with a part time job. I think. Depends on the hours.

Well anyway, I'm sure you're all tired of hearing about my publishing woes by now, but that's the cause. To answer any questions you might have had the guy is called Aaron Yelenick and the company is called Proxy Publishing. I took your advice and tried to find out more about him but because "Proxy Publishing" is an actual industry term, I couldn't find out anything. The last I heard from him, I think I mentioned it on here. He told me that he needed some keywords for my story and I gave him some.

EDIT: I've since talked to him and we've smoothed things out and cleared things up.

I had plans. I was feeling on top of the world and writing a lot. I blazed through my Immortal Space rewrites and I made writing a habit again. I was going to have him publish The Beast, and then publish Immortal Space too. I was going to get off of unemployment and focus entirely on my writing. I was going to have the life I've wanted. Then reality kicked me square in my boyparts. The guy never published me, and I became depressed. I accepted that he wouldn't publish Immortal Space too. This made it incredibly difficult to look at it. It made it difficult to even write. Just writing made me think about that and depressed me. Writing is something you need to be in the mood for. It's something you don't realise the extremeness of until you try it.

I made backup plans; I decided to keep writing Immortal Space. I decided to send it off to other publishers. To approach them and take a risk. But the depression was there, as I said. I became unable to look at Immortal Space and going through it made me sad. I should probably try and write some more short stories or something but I really want to get through Immortal Space. I'd like to finish it and move on from this.

I'm getting tired of things not going the way I want them to go. I know in the end though they'll go where I need them to go, wherever the fuck that is. Maybe I do finish I.S and submit it to a publisher. Maybe they love it and sell it, and I get a little fame. Maybe I write short stories instead. Release another collection. Maybe I do something and just make something of myself.

I'm just damn tired of feeling like a failure. I'd like to look my dad in the eyes and say "I did something." Some people never quite realise what they've done to you.


  1. Persistence is key. I know that sounds cliched, but it's a universal truth. Don't stop moving forward with your writing, and your dreams will come true my friend.

  2. Is it the same Aaron Yelenick who lives here in Colorado? This guy?

    If so, something about him seems incredibly fishy. His ebook site looks weird (aka not very legit), and his resume is full of BS like "owner at Promised Money Investors, LLC." And he's also apparently a model. Right.

    Feel free to e-mail us if you need any help sniffing this dude out.

    1. That's me. I have published "The Beast" already as you can see from the following link:

      I am concerned for Mark (author of The Beast) due to his lack of confidence in people doing what they say they are going to do, when they say they are going to do it. There is a great deal of work that must be put into an eBook, if the eBook is to be successful in its sales.

      After many hours of work, I did get "The Beast" published, I just wish that I had the confidence and support from my authors when I go out of my way to help them.

  3. Read the title as "Working Out: The Problem". Would make for a good comedy about a bunch of bros who run into difficulties at the gym.

    Hey, reading this post, my advice is this: Unless they've already published multiple works of yours, don't get too attached to a specific publisher. Keep your options open, submit to multiple publishers. Hell, if two accept at the same time you may be able to play that as a "better deal please" card.
    Don't get too bummed over rejections and failures. They're part of being a writer. And hey, these things happen.
    Don't know how much of an option it is, but have you considered self-publishing?

    Then again, I haven't ever even so much as looked at a publisher, so take this with a spoonful of salt.

  4. I think Fang is on to something with "Working Out: The Problem". making a good name for a comedy, I wish I could work something out like how to find motivation each day and not just on some days

  5. As Bob Dylan said, "...there's no success like failure. And failure's no success at all." You learn from your failures, and that's how someone becomes a success. Especially in writing. I am sure if you look into it, you could find endless examples of writers who twisted in the winds of obscurity for years, only to become gigantic successes due to their persistence. I saw this one movie "Conversations With God" based on the book. He became a best selling author later in life. As the movie portrays it "God" told him he "wasn't ready yet", and that's why it took so long. The trick is to stay positive in the meantime, and realize that every "failure" is not really a failure, but just a learning experience.

  6. A part-time job is the way to go. I work a full-time job and I'm out of the house 12 hours a day (long commute). It's really difficult because I have very little time to write, as made apparent by my dead in the mud blog.

    But, I read a few books on writing and publishing. It's about a 1 in 10,000 chance of an author being published. What most authors are doing nowadays is self publishing their work (which you're familiar with). If their book attracts a lot of attention, a publishing company will contact you. I suggest hiring an editor for Immortal Space, because you've invested too much time into it for it to be overlooked.

  7. I met someone recently who told me she "gave up" her job to be a writer. She's not the first either. I have to wonder if these people also give up food and paying rent. :/
    It's the toughest career ever, being a writer. But we must never give up. And write for yourself, not for others. I think we write the best stuff when we write for ourselves first.



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