I might have blogged about this before but to be honest I don't really care enough to check. Besides I probably have more to say on the subject. I have trust issues. Lots of them. Maybe not lots of them actually. I'm not sure you can have more than one trust issue. I have fairly a fairly bad trust issue. I think that works better. The main point is that I have difficulty trusting people. I also have difficulty accepting people trust me. This makes it kind of weird when I find people who do trust me. People who would never once question my motives even though I question them myself.
I say people but of course I mean person. A pretty amazing person. I am actually used to people not trusting me which never really makes it very easy to then accept that others will trust you. Sometimes I can have a little difficulty with this person but she really treats me like no one else ever has. I sow the seeds of doubt and feed them a steady influx of lies and plots. Except I don't. I know deep down that there's no reason to mistrust me. I have valid reasons for what I do and do pretty much everything with legitimate and honest intentions.
It's a really strange feeling for me to be trusted no matter what. Not even my cats perfectly trust me. It doesn't help I attack them with flea spray but they can't understand it's for their own good. I win back Girl Cat's love by feeding her though. That's not her actual name by the way it's just something I call her. Oddly enough it takes longer to say Girl Cat than it does to say Kadie, which is her actual name. The name I occasionally call my Boy Cat, Sir Kitty McFluffenstein the Third is definitely longer than his given name of Garfield. I just find Garfield a bit boring and obvious. He's a ginger cat so he's Garfield by default. It's like calling every border collie Lassie. Lassie was a border collie right? I have no clue.
Well that derailed pretty quickly.
Main point? I have someone who trusts me and it feels strange, but also pretty cool. I'm coming to terms with it.