I was recently struck by the realisation of how much I seem to have changed lately. There are some things I can't totally go into but I really do seem to have come a long way lately. It was around this time last year I was having emotional breakdowns at work and now I can, and do, go volunteer on a semi regular basis. If it wasn't for the fact I was doing other cool stuff with my life I'd probably go more. I doubt it though, but I do know that mentally I could handle it quite well. I'm not as quiet there anymore and do chat with my boss and some of the other people in work. Now it's not so much about not being able to deal with them, it's more about not wanting to deal with them. That may sound bad, but I don't really intend it to be. I don't find what they talk about interesting is all but when there's a place for me in a conversation I will happily place myself in it.
Okay, that sounds kinda worse. I'm going to stop that before I drag myself into a hole I can't dig my way out of.
But other than that I've also changed in other ways. This time last year, hay even a few months ago, I would never imagine that I would be going to the gym on a regular basis. Not only that, but I go on my own. I even relish going on my own sometimes because it means I can have a shower there and save time by not needing to have a bath at home. Me, showering, in a gym. Although that's actually because they have shower stalls. If it was a communal shower then nah, I wouldn't ever dare use it. Luckily it's not like prison or those movies on the internet.
You know the ones I mean. Well if I'm still making dirty jokes I've not changed entirely, but it's impossible to say I'm still the same person I was even a few months ago. I don't really feel it or see it but everyone I know has commented on my weight loss and my boss, the guy who got me in the gym in the first place, has complimented my willpower and resolve. I actually go to the gym more than he does now and the reason I went is so he wouldn't have to go on his own. I think I'm going to have to start going later to accomodate him.
Now that my niece is almost done with school though it means I can. I only had to go early so I could be done in time to pick her up from school.