Monday, 6 May 2013

This Is...A Stark Realisation

I found myself facing quite a stark realisation a few days ago. As you know I used to update Immortal Space a lot and for a while I was actually able to run two updates a week. Lately though I've been having trouble keeping up with one update a week. To be honest my passion for the story has kind of faded. I have a lot of things planned out for the story so I know (for the most part) what's going to happen. I also happen to know that I seem to be having a lot of trouble committing that to document, as I don't write on paper.

The thing is though, I am most definitely not suffering from a writing burnout. Far from it, I'm actually seriously putting out a lot of writing. In the past week alone I've written over 19000 words of fiction. The problem? And this is where it gets frankly disturbing and hard to admit, but that's fanfiction. Stories I enjoy writing and I'm having a lot of fun with. I even wrote two few thousand word one shot stories. One of them is a birthday present for a friend and it came in at 3600 words. I haven't written several thousand words in a day since I went nuts last year and wrote a short story a day. I had fun with those stories too. Plus being insane helped.

I'm not saying I'm going to quit writing IS, I've invested a lot of time in to it and there are people who enjoy it and I want to bring them the story, but right now I personally am not enjoying it too much. I don't even know why really. I do know though that if I could take that insane dedication to writing, that 19000 words a week, I'd have a novella in a fortnight and a novel in a month. If I found a story I enjoyed, then I can sit down and enjoy it.

My fiction is very well received. I actually looked at reviews for my book on Amazon and there was one, from a complete stranger, who said I displayed hints of "writing genius". I'm going to be egotistical for just a second. Just a brief second, so enjoy it. I am a good writer. People enjoy my stories.

I just need to enjoy them too. Right now I'm not enjoying the stories I'm supposed to, and I almost feel kind of bad for enjoying these little side projects that some may disregard as being silly. I shouldn't feel that way either. I should feel comfortable writing what I enjoy writing. I'm not even sure what the point of all this is really. I think I need to go insane again and dedicate a week to writing a book. Jessica says I should consider writing a novella. I have an idea for one actually I just need to flesh out the details and see if it will work. I'm just going to have to stop before I keep babbling inanely.

In case you've not picked up on the stark realisation it's that I'm not enjoying Immortal Space, and the reason I know this is because I wrote 19000 words that were NOT Immortal Space. That says a lot.

LASTLY; I got an email from the guy I did the first voice audition for. I didn't get the part but the guy said he liked my voice and would contact me if something else came up. I'd be sad I didn't get the part, and I am, but I'm still proud of myself for submitting an audition in the first place.

15 comments:

  1. They say too much of a good thing can dull it but you're driving on like a steam train with work so your mind is elsewhere with it's creative juices.

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  2. Just go with where the creative buzz takes you Mark. Right now Immortal Space is probably simmering on a back burner in you mind. When it's time to write it, it will come out.

    Very proud of you for auditioning for that voice acting job. Keep it up, someone will give you a gig.

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  3. Disappointment, followed by understanding and respect. Just go with whatever floats your boat man, as long as IS eventually gets finished, it's all fine by me!

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  4. Do what you love...another very clichéd bit of advice but it works man.
    You can always get back to Immortal Space when you feel like it!:)

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  5. We've taken breaks from our fair share of projects. It's important to only write when you love writing. If you don't, it'll show through in the quality.

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  6. Sorry to hear that you didn't get the voice acting role. Honestly dude if you're really, really finding it a chore writing Immortal Space then you should stop for a while and take a break, a long one until writing it becomes long again. I think that you've done a great job with it all the same and it's been a brilliant story, just keep doing what you enjoy and rewards will come buddy, honestly that's the way to do it.

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  7. So I need to go crazy in order to write some short stories? I'm not sure what to do in order to go crazy.

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  8. I've been having a massive writers block and somehow I can't seem to write stories; it's like their in my head but can't come out on paper.

    Don't be disappointed maybe something more good is in store for you.

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  9. I always kinda found writing about writer's block helped... if that makes sense?

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  10. Well I would consider it to be your first "big" work so it's not a surprise that you realize that maybe it's not as amazing as you thought it be.

    That's fine, take what you've learned from Immortal Space and use them in your next work.

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  11. I think this may be a blessing in disguise. Right now your writing is taking a bit of twist and turn away from IS and that's perfectly fine. There's no one saying it has to be done. And, if you're okay with setting it aside for a bit to work on other things you truly are enjoying, I say, go for it. Let your creative juices flow so when that tickle of IS sparks again, you'll kick ass!!!

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  12. i hear you man...glad you got the realization and you should write what you want and not feel the pressure to keep something going if it is not interesting to you...you can always come back to it when the time is right...

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  13. If you don't finish a project, you at least learn something from it, so the next project will be better.

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  14. Maybe its time to take a hiatus from one project and work on whatever mood you're in...then you can go back to it with fresh new ideas!

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