Wednesday, 6 February 2013

Feeling Melancholic

I just completed a video game called Kingdoms of Amalur: Reckoning that I've spent over sixty hours playing, and it left me feeling pretty contemplative and melancholic. While I may be talking about how I felt after playing a video game, I think this post will still be relatable because I think that all of us, at one point or another, have had something we put a lot of time in to end. It's just that most people feel this way after relationships, not finishing video games. I decided that because I was feeling melancholic, I would just jot down my thoughts.

This is hardly the first time I've spent so long on one game. That tends to happen when you play a lot of RPG's. I didn't even feel like this after finishing all three Mass Effect games one after the other, and that was over 100 hours of gameplay. I've completed a few Final Fantasy's in my time too and I spent two years plus on World of Warcraft. I never really found myself feeling anything other than joy and relief that I had finished them. If anything I felt pretty good to have completed something I spent such a long amount of time on. I think that's something else other people can relate to.

It's like...that was sixty hours of my life. I had a lot of fun playing the game, and I hardly think it was wasted time or effort (time spent having fun is never wasted) but I don't know, I just don't feel right. I haven't been feeling right for days though if I'm honest. Last Saturday I almost snapped and cut my ponytail off (I didn't do it by the way, the moment passed). I'm so glad I was out shopping at the time or I would have grabbed a pair of scissors and probably done it. Then I almost had another breakdown while sat in my room. Doing nothing.

If I've become so fragile that I can't even sit alone in my room without wanting to cry then what the hay is wrong with me?

11 comments:

  1. Persona 3. It's the only time I've ever felt that way with a video game, but I put a shit load of time and effort into the game, and it ended and I felt a little hollow and a lot alone.

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  2. Also, I think the dude that developed that game went bankrupt and got sued by the state of Rhode Island because they gave his company money to be in the state of Rhode Island. FYI, Rhode Island is not actually an island.

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  3. Felt the same way when I finished Dragon Age: Origins, a feeling like, what now?

    Gonna give Kingdoms of Amalur a try soon, combat system's supposed to be good

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  4. glad your ponytail survived...never good to make an emotional decision you know...sometimes it is good to have those games to retreat to and allow the brain a rest to process...but i def feel if i spend in ordinate amounts of time on it that i feel bad...

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  5. Wow, it's been forever (or feels like forever) since I was on your blog. I have so much catching up to do! Anyways, I hope you feel better soon Mark :) and yeah time spent having fun is not a waste of time...unless you know, you're supposed to do something rather important. Then it's a waste - but a fun one!

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  6. When I was younger, having my favorite team win a sporting event would make me feel happy. Today, I might feel like I am wasting time and energy worrying about something that won't really change my life in any positive way. But then again, in a billion years who will know what we did here in our time on Earth. Perhaps spending your time having fun is the way to go.

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  7. I sometimes feel kind of melancholic when I complete games, I guess that's just the way some things go man.

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  8. I know the feel, man. It sucks, but hey, at least you had fun, right?

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  9. I've felt that way after completing many RPGs. FF 7 was the worst

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  10. i think ive got like 14k hours in guildwars 1

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  11. A friend of mine just had a similar experience. It wasn't finishing a game, though; it was finishing a writing project she had been working on forever. Endings can be sad, but at least your ponytail was spared!

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