So, not a good start to the day.
The therapy itself went pretty well. My goals for this week are to do some cleaning, and do some writing. And my dinner just turned up so I'll have to finish later.
Okay I'm at the library so I'm going to finish up. Writing and cleaning aren't really related to my sociophobic problems but my depression and overall levels of stress and anxiety do keep me from performing basic household tasks and even pleasure tasks so they're still goals I can aspire to in this therapy.
Me and Suzy actually went out for a walk today. I knew that we would eventually do it but I wasn't realising it would be quite so soon and she didn't give me any warning. It went quite well except for one incident where we walked through a gang of youths but I was talking to her so tried to avoid really focusing on what happened. Other than that it was good and I have been trying to focus on the positive. Like getting writing done this week and cleaning up the kitchen. I actually felt worse with Suzy than I would on my own for a few reasons. Mostly it was that I didn't want to feel embarrassed. Like if I couldn't keep up, or if I got worn out. I know I have good stamina so I knew I would be fine, but it still bothered me.
I don't have a session next week, because she's fully booked up, but I do have one the Monday after next. So its ten days away, not seven. Its also going to be a double session. She wants us to go outside again, for a full hour. I don't think I could walk for a full hour so I'm hoping she'll let me buy her a drink. Of tea. She said she likes tea.
Anyway, I have no idea how long this post is because its being written on my phone so if you feel like I left something out, feel free to let me know and I can expand upon it.
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