So in the interests of doing something a little fun I decided that I would try to start my one meme/blogger fad thingy. If you actually do this yourself, then do let me know, just so I can know I influenced people to do something. Just don't drive under the influence, especially if it's under the influence of me. So, the basic idea is this. I pick three songs. One to describe how I felt, especially towards myself, in the past, the present, and how I hope to feel in the future. Along with why of course. We all have those moments where we're listening to music and we think to ourselves "Wow, this song is so me." but how many of us have songs where we think "This is who I was" or "This is who I want to be"? Can you even pick just one of each? I can, and so now I'm going to. To the youuuuuutuuuuuuuuubeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeessssss
Past me: The Monster Is Loose by Meatloaf.
Back when I was younger, I did actually use this song to describe myself. I was, and still am in some ways, a bitter and angry individual full of hatred that just wanted to smash everyone and everything that got in my way. Someone once told me when I was talking to him on MSN that he could feel my hatred from there. That was actually a very badass moment for me. To be full of such intense emotion. He also told me that I set off warning systems in the very depths of a person's subconscious. If you've ever had an innate feeling that something is dangerous, I was essentially that. Like I said, dark as that is, it was a very badass time for me.
Present: Song To Say Goodbye by Placebo
I absolutely love this song, and I can relate to it so easily. It's dark, and it's sad, but it's me. It's how I see myself. There's a part of me that wants to help myself, and the other part of me that is still just a useless piece of meat on the ground. I don't like myself anymore, and sometimes I give up on myself. I was someone very different before my innocence was lost, though maybe some will argue that I can still make them cry with my voice.
Future; Love Song, by The Cure.
Who doesn't know this song? I could happily sing it to Robert Smith. God damn he's beautiful. Or was. Anyway, yes, this is how I would like to feel about myself in the future. I would like to be happy and in love with myself, and my own company. I would of course like to be loved by others, but I want to be able to tell myself "No matter how far away, no matter how long I stay, I will always love you." Maybe I'll get there one day. Who knows what the future really brings? Certainly not John Edwards.
So, how about you guys? Let's get this thing going, and make it a real "thing". It's not spam if everyone does it!