Wednesday, 18 July 2012

My Cat Made Me Do It

Well I did something stupid yesterday. Well actually I did several stupid things that partly resulted in me tweeting that there should be a limit to masochism. I really thought there was but I seem to defy that at every turn. Or at least, there's no limit to my masochism. Anyway, off the subject of that, I was mildly disappointed yesterday that my post got so few comments. It really sucks when you pour your heart and soul in to something and it gets barely any response. I'll live, but it still sucks a bit. Especially as I would have pulled the post but I overslept. Which was one of the stupid things I did yesterday. I woke up at about six with a hay fever attack. Yes. Hay fever. At SIX FREAKIN AM. After that I was able to get back to sleep but I should have just stayed up then. I woke up a few hours later, and lil miss Kitty was sleeping next to me. Now, I love my cats, and I hate disturbing them. I have stayed in bed just because I didn't want to disturb them. Which is precisely what I did yesterday. You know what happens when you stay in bed? You tend to sleep. I lost several hours of my day thanks to that cat. Oh well, I still love her to pieces and would do it again. Another stupid thing I did was stay up until two in the morning. In my defense a friend needed someone to talk to, and I've pulled all nighters over that before. Hell one time me and a friend were playing World Of Warcraft together, and I was staying up because she needed someone to talk to, and they shut the servers down (they do it once a week for maintenance) and so we just talked on a forum for a few hours instead. There are no limits to my generosity, and my stupidity. So today I have some more answered questions for you all. Even if I have just pretty much written a post right there.

So last Saturday we had my dream wedding, and this time we have my dream date.
I've said it before, and I'll probably say it again, but SO MANY OPTIONS. Hmmm. Well I would choose then that at first we'll have a meal and a few drinks by the beach and then go on the beach itself and sit and look at the stars. Or we'd have a picnic. Or we'd just stay in and play games or watch a movie. I'm open really, and like I said there's so damn much I'd want to do. Plus everyone is different. I'd try and cater to the date's tastes as best as I can. There's no such thing as an ideal date, because different people want different things.


Have you ever did something bad or lied to your parents but got away with it?
I can think of only one situation that happened really. I was a very good boy. I did have one dick move though. I can't remember how young I was, I was pretty young though. I was at my sister's house with the family and I found a five pound note and stuck it in my pocket. When everyone started looking for it I said that I had found it. I think they knew I had taken it but I guess they just let it slide because I gave it back. Other than that I never really did anything like that.


Something you have to forgive yourself for.
There's a lot really. Some I can't even talk about. Plus I think that there are some times when it just seems arrogant to think you have to forgive yourself for something. “Yeah I know you don't really forgive me for what I did, but I forgive myself for how I reacted.” I think other people need to forgive me for what I've done more than I need to forgive myself for it. It's hard to be forgiving of yourself when you're, well, me.

Something you have to forgive someone for.
I need to forgive my boss I guess for how he treated me. He did care about me really I guess. I need to forgive all the people I bear ill will towards for no real reason. There are plenty of people who didn't mean to hurt me and some who never even realised they did hurt me. I need to let that go, and move on. For my sake as well as theirs. 

25 comments:

  1. Sometimes forgiveness is the only thing one can do to initiate/fasten the healing process.

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    1. Yes I know, but some of the things I've done are things that can't be forgiven, and the people I did them to can't forgive me because they aren't around any more.

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  2. Hey, Mark, that Pacman that looks like wood... is a mushroom. That thing looks like it has teeth! I'd never seen one like that before.

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  3. I don't think stealing that five pound note was anything to feel guilty for mate, honestly it's a very minor thing, especially considering all the bad things I've done behind my parents backs like smoking and things, you've been a good son. Great answers as always mate.

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    1. I smoked once when I was about six and damn near choked to death. I've only ever smoked once or twice since. Bah I can't even say "never again" anymore. I've not been a good son, I've just been well behaved. Plus there were a few things I did that I didn't get away with that were a lot worse.

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  4. You shouldn't get down about a lack of comments. I truly believe on the internets, you may be reaching many people, but they don't nescessarily leave a comment, but they are still impacted by what you wrote. I know, for example, there are youtube videos I have probably watched a hundred times, but have never even thought to leave a comment. Yet, the vid still means a lot to me. I am sure with your daily output you are touching many more people's lives than you could even imagine, so don't get discouraged.

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    1. There are some people who read and don't comment, I know that one. Comments aren't a very accurate record of how many people saw and read the post. I don't think that way about Youtube though. I rarely ever comment on Youtube, but always comment on Blogger. I think I get about 30-40 views on each post, which is actually fairly good.

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  5. You could've just silently gotten out of bed, instead of staying there? Come on, surely you got SOME ninja skills to use here!

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    1. I do have mad ninja skills. I'm constantly appearing out of nowhere (at least no one ever notices me turning up) but my cat has INSANE ninja skills. She reacts to every tiny movement or sound. She actually won't sleep on me because the tiniest movement makes her run away. I can't even turn my computer chair without attracting her attention.

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  6. I don't like disturbing my cats either, all 24 of them. I actually use them as the mattress, nice and fluffy.

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    1. Sadly I only have two, and neither of them would be very happy if I did that.

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  7. Ha ha... love the title. Turns out, your cat really did make you do it!

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  8. As for as comments go, this is the summer and I notice that in general, people are commenting a lot less right now because they are busy.

    I am quite sure that people don't mean to hurt you and honestly, moving on is all you can do to maintain some sanity. I learned that the hard way...after I lost it. Also, I should get a cat. I have so much to blame on it!

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  9. This past weekend my friend stayed up past 4:30am with me so that we could have a chat. So, I can appreciate when someone gives up their time like that.

    Also, I feel like I'm good at forgiving, but then again, I don't really know what forgiving entails. Is it still forgiveness when you still want nothing to do with that person, but aren't necessarily angry with them?

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  10. I think you know how I feel about forgiving and you being able to forgive your boss will come in time. For me, I had to forgive myself first and then when that happened, I was able to forgive others for the hurt they caused me. When my counselor told me that's how it would work, it made zero sense because I was the one who had been hurt but I was also angry at myself for how I reacted at the time and blah blah blah...darned if my counselor wasn't right..funny how she knows stuff like that LOL

    Be well, Mark!! I'm off to galavant around NY some more!

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  11. Lack of comments sucks I know :(

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  12. Mark I'm loving this blog! Keep up the good worK!

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  13. I always enjoy reading your posts, but I tend to over-analyze my words and then start to doubt my ability to convey my thoughts properly, and then I begin to ramble and wander off to other thoughts, AND then when I snap out of my ramblings I realize I've veered off the point of my comment. (That's the main reason I tend not to comment a lot, but I'm working on it!)

    Your dream date sounds lovely by the way; and for shame: stealing a five-pound note! :P Hahaha, the worst thing I ever did without getting in trouble was when I stole a piece of candy from the local grocery store (I was four or five years old I think?)...

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  14. I know it's disappointing when you work on a post and there's a low turn-out. But I know it's not just you because comments are down everywhere. A lot of people are on vacation or just taking blogger breaks.

    I have a hard time with forgiving people sometimes. If someone hurts me, usually I get past it. If they hurt one of my family members, I never forget it and rarely forgive it.

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  15. you were such a 'holy' boy back then, even u gave it back haha I still can't believe there's a boy who never lies to his parents, I s'pose it's just me who's been too bad a boy lol

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  16. oh, and I didn't know if WoW even still exists until now. it's been almost 10 years, no? gees.

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  17. never regret being nice to animals

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  18. Sometimes my comment count does the same thing - some posts are higher, and some are lower. I've had a few very serious posts where I thought, "Really? I wish more people actually read that since it mattered." It happens, man. As someone above said, it's summer so some people are on vacation. Some are taking blog breaks. Some are like me and just don't make it online as much as they'd like to. But your blog rocks, and I've always appreciated your comments, so try not to be too disappointed.

    My cat has been responsible for some of my oversleeping as well, although he's not very cuddly. It's a rare mood when he decides to cuddle, so I never want to ruin it when it happens haha.

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  19. I struggle quite a bit with forgiveness. I don't exactly consider it holding a grudge but once my feelings turns sour for someone I tend to just become indifferent to them. I really dislike that about myself and it is something I'm actively working on. It just takes time to change a life-long habit.

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  20. I can't sleep with my cats. Somehow, their bum always ends up in my face, or if it doesn't, they knead my face. My dog, on the other hand, is perfect, but he likes to sleep alone. Too bad, he is so great to cuddle with.

    What is the Internet Defense League?

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