Friday, 1 June 2012

Pressure

If there's one thing I've learned recently it's that I do not handle pressure very well. I'm not good at making snappy decisions, and I get stressed way too easily. I've been on the verge of tears, or actually in tears, far too many times lately. One time last week I managed to hit three times in a day. I am awesome.

I used to be good with that kind of thing. I could take things not going how I wanted quite well. I was able to adjust and adapt rather easily. I would take a few seconds maybe to contemplate my options, and then quickly make a new choice. Now though it seems like I choose to just get stressed out, accept the path of least resistance, and try my best not to cry. This has resulted in me going hungry, snapping at people, and being a lot more passively, or actively, aggressive. I am not so awesome.

There are folks who do handle pressure very well, and there are even people who strive under it, and actually act better. There are some people who will deliberately put themselves in pressurizing situations just because it is somehow easier for them.

I suppose one reason I'm not that good with pressure is that I've never really felt it. I generally have a lax attitude towards life. Probably too much of one. But to use some examples, let's say homework at school. I never did it. Ever. So I never really felt pressured by deadlines. When exams came around, I was actually pretty confident, and never studied or revised. Again, a lax attitude and no pressure. I even passed all my exams.

This attitude did not serve me so well in college though. Times were much tougher there. Even though I cite that I left for personal reasons, the truth of the matter is that the work was piling on top of me anyway. I can put most of that down to personal circumstances too, but there are people who manage to balance personal and school lives. In college you can't really not do homework, you can't slack off in lessons, and you certainly cannot get by without studying, and taking things in properly.

Is there a point to all this? I'm not entirely sure. All I really know is that my stress levels have been building and building, even though I haven't really felt much in the way of stress lately. It just comes all in one huge go (there's a dirty joke in there) and then goes away (there's a joke about men in there. At least men leave cab money. My stress just leaves me feeling shame, disappointment, and like I've done something wrong. Oh the innuendo)

I would tell you all to study properly for exams, but the school year is nearly over, and for those of you taking big exams this year, most of you are done with them. If you plan to move on to further education though, it will be tougher. You have been warned.

17 comments:

  1. I'm similar to you when it comes to pressure and deadlines buddy, very similar in fact. I never used to do homework either yet when it came to the day or something I had to hand it in I'd feel lots of pressure despite the pressure being all my fault. Good post man.

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  2. I used to handle stress and pressure filled situations like a champ. Now not so much. At least away from work. At work I am ok because I take myself out of it and I'm good...why I can not to that outside of work is a mystery.

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  3. I never did homework either and had a very similar attitude to life. However, rather than stress me out in later life in deadline situations, if anything I've gone the other way. I fail to see the consequences of not getting stuff done on time and don't tend to let things bother me. You're probably better off doing things your way than living in the ignorance that I inhabit.

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  4. hmmm..I'm not sure if I'm good at handling pressure either but I realized my brain works fast when I'm under pressure :D

    hmm..you just have to unwind to de-stress :)

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  5. Dude sometimes I just want to come over and give you a hug or something.
    Also looks like we both breezed through our exams the same way. But yeah, college is probably going to be a lot tougher.

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  6. The only thing that kept me completing assignments on time was fear. It seems you were able to get by in high school by relying on your God given intelligence, so you never really felt that fear. Though getting by on fear isn't a good thing. You don't really learn a lot in that state. I have found when you are over stressed the best thing to do is take a time out. Get some rest and relaxation, and then confront life when you are feeling up to it. Don't force yourself to keep going, that just burns you out. Of course there is the danger of spending too much time relaxing. It is sort of a balance to keep just enough gas in the tank to keep going, and then making a judgment call when you need a little "fill 'er up" if that makes any sense. A fan of the Rocky movies, most of my life I just kept pushing myself no matter what, because I was taught that was noble. Sadly at this stage, I have learned, all that happens is life beats the snot out of ya. Don't try to do more than you are capable of, is you can possibly help it.

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  7. I don't handle negative pressure well at all. I flip in a second!

    However, pressure in doing something I like - for example, if I'm managing a project (which is something I enjoy doing) and there's a lot of pressure on to make it work... well that's the sort that I thrive under.

    As far as negative pressure goes I try and steer clear of it the best I can because no one wants to see me having a fit! lol ;-)

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  8. Making decisions and I don't mix very well. Any decision. It takes me hours just to decide what to have for dinner.

    And now today, my boss isn't here so all the decisions on what will ship is all on me!

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  9. I do well under pressure. When I was struck with trauma, that one threw me for a loop because it was so unexpected and I couldn't believe I would have to seek counseling after having survived so much in the past - once i got past that and learned how to cope - now I'm back to learning how to "better" under pressure....

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  10. SO. Is it pressing down on you? Is it pushing down on me? Is it burning a building down and splitting a family in two?

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  11. I used to feel that I didn't handle pressure very well, then I suddenly found out that I could just get rid of all of the crap in my life!
    Of course, going to Uni was different, but working at my own speed took a lot of pressure off me, and I had to work harder than I had ever done before!
    You have to take care of yourself, Mark, and don't punish yourself so much. Life has a lot to offer if you know where to look and know your limits.

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  12. Well, I unfortunately found out that all the stressing ot in college didn't do me good. As it turns out, an English degree doesn't get me too far in this economy. I don't get stressed all that often. I mostly just get frustrated, but I attempt to keep a good attitude.

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  13. i like how ppl feel pressured when i get on the hockey pad. feels good

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  14. Personally I thrive under pressure and get apathetic when something isn't challenging. That is me, we are all different.

    Pressure is just expectation. Make your expectations realistic and the pressure disappears.

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  15. I love working under pressure and really can't get motivated to do anything unless there is a looming deadline. This even extended to the writing of my wedding speech...which was scrawled on a post-it note over breakfast before heading off to the church.

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  16. My stress levels leave me with cold sores on my mouth and ulcers in my guts. I'd rather have disappointment and shame.

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  17. I was once horrible under pressure, but that all changed when I tried exposure therapy for my panic disorder. A lovely Cornish friend coached me through the process. After just a few weeks, I found that stress did not feel bad, or if it did, I could ignore my feelings and just live.

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