I drove in the town centre today too. I was around more traffic and people than I've ever been and I handled it a lot better than I imagined I would. Actually when I realised where I was I said "Oh dear God" which made my instructor laugh. I even stalled it right there in the middle of the town centre and made one great noise because I didn't stick to exactly what my instructor said. He told me to put the hand brake on but I didn't because the car in front of me moved off. It turns out a beginner like me shouldn't do this. I still had the clutch down (for people who don't know clutch all the way down means the car won't move) and when the car started drifting backwards I panicked and put the accelatrix on, to try and move forward. If I had taken the clutch off when I had the accelatrix on the car would have shot forward, and there would have been a crash. But hey I didn't crash so it's all good.
No matter what went wrong I was able to laugh it off and move on and focus on what was going well. I made some mistakes sure, but I'm going to learn from them.
This positive experience kind of made me think I shouldn't go into therapy after all, but I know I should. One positive experience doesn't fix everything, and I know I have a lot of deep rooted things I should get sorted out. I might be better when I'm out of the situation that causes me problems, but the problems are still there, and they will come to me in the day. Avoiding situations is no way to live really.