Thursday, 15 March 2012

Surprise!

So here is the big surprise I mentioned on Monday. It's a podcast, no that wasn't the surprise, what I talk about will be though. I'm sorry if my voice sounds weird or anything I'm still stuffy from my bout of flu last week but I soldiered on and made a podcast. Enjoy!





This one had the potential to be long, there were a lot of stories I could have told but find myself not doing, but I think it's still a good length. As per usual if the embedded player isn't working it, along with all my other works, can be found here: http://ramblingperson.podbean.com/2012/03/14/a-surprise/ and I hope to be on iTunes soon too.

41 comments:

  1. I had to stop listening at the 4:25 minute mark cause I'm only 12. What was the rest of the story about? Now I'll never know...

    lol! kids crying cause they were adopted is funny!... not that I listened after the 4:25 minute mark...

    Glad you did this! This story told me alot about you! (Up till the 4:25 minute mark!)

    A pentagram? Three guys after her and she pines after a fourth guy? Wow! Thats an orgy in the making!... and then she sleeps with two of them after you!!!! So she's sleeping with most of them?!! Holy Sh*t! What a slut!! I'm glad shes out of your life! Shes not good for you! And once you find someone else you'll get over her!

    Thanks for making this podcast! Keep making them!

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    1. Well I was out of ideas and just gave up and decided to do this one. It makes her sound bad in context but I don't think she was that bad. She just really sounds it.

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    2. Oh she was bad, you don't realize it cause you liked her and put all your good feelings about life and love into her.

      I hope you learn to love again!

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    3. Don't worry love was ruined for me before this point.

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    4. How is that not something to worry about?!

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    5. I don't know. I don't know most of what I say.

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  2. Yer fears came true, Mark. I ain't able tah get what yer said.

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    1. It's the story of my first girlfriend from four years ago.

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  3. It's a story I've heard before but a little different and it was my brother and I only found out about it when I picked him up in the hospital after he attempted suicide.....love is a strange emotion that constantly frustrates and angers us equally I believe.

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    1. Some still believe love can make you happy amazingly enough. I was very depressed but I covered suicide last week.

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  4. I love the concept of podcasts mate. I'm with Bersecules, keep on making them, this one was pretty damn good.

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  5. At first I was gonna listen to the first part of this, and get on with my day...then come back later and listen while I was ingesting my fast food dinner for lunch... But it was so compelling I listened to the whole thing now. Well, believe it or not, you are much more socially adept than many, many millions of people. The fact that you have had enough friends and relationships to make podcasts about them proves that. Now, the problem of your fear of people abandoning you is a hard one to grapple with. Sadly, it seems that the value of loyalty to one's friends is becoming more and more passe. I have had relationships or friendships much less serious than the one you described that I still can't get over the person dumping me.... So, I really can't give any good advice other than to say, find something that will make you happy that you know can not leave you. For example, if you love writing, pour all your heart and energy into becoming the best writer you can, then hopefully all else will fall into place.

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    1. I already have things I know won't leave me, my poem last week was about things like that :) I don't see many agreeing with you that I'm not socially inept though. If I wasn't then I'd be able to keep the relationships and the friends. You have to see me in action to see how really inept I am. I had already been betrayed pretty badly by this point so this was really more the finishing blow to my ability to trust. Even if I trust some people now I still have the thought that one day they're going to abandon me as everyone else has. Fear of abandonment came from every friendship and relationship I've had as well as this one.

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    2. Sometimes we judge ourselves more harshly than others would judge us. If you ran into someone very much like you, my hunch is, you would not nearly be so hard on them as you are on yourself.

      The abandonment issue is a tough one. I read about a couple today who was married 65 years, and someone asked them, "How did you manage to stay married for 65 years??" They answered, "We grew up at a time when you were taught if something is broke you fix it, you don't throw it away." There must be some people around that still have that outlook on life.

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    3. I'm very harsh on myself, I know that much. I love couples who have been together that long, and they really worked to keep it, they didn't just throw it away.

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  6. You growled at that douche and she hit you. Ouch. Why?! It was obvious that she had eyes for that guy.. which is sad because she was with you.

    A love pentagram. Whaat?!?!?

    This is the story you talked about in your comment to my post, isn't it? The one you never quite got over.. :(

    "I'd be able to accept that not everyone will hurt me in the end.. A lot of people hurt and betrayed me.. a lot." God, this line made me shed a tear. :(

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    1. It was actually funny at the time that I growled at him. I even bore my teeth at him in a seriously protective gesture. It was almost cute in a way. In a way it did end up as some kind of love pentagon, there was me, her, two other guys that initially she wanted, and then this other guy came in. So that's five people. This is the one I never got over, this is one that really screwed me up. I also don't remember saying that, but I'm not going to listen to it again.

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  7. This was sad to hear, even though I did laugh when you called us all 'a dirty bastard,' and the story about telling an adopted kid she's adopted.

    Anyway, if I dated a girl and she still had any feelings for a guy, wouldn't let you make fun of him, or even worse, said he wasn't a bad guy when he'd do terrible things like make her flash him drunk, she'd be out on the curb in a hot second. The trick is just finding the right person who wants you and ONLY you. Love pentagons never work out well. :)

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    1. I tried to keep it light in places to stop it being too emotional. I'm still looking for that person chaps, I'll let you know if I find them.

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  8. surprise! a post of your that i read in entirety! :D

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  9. Sounds like you had really good times with her. It was worth your time, right? In the end, it's all about the fun times~
    "yer adopted" hahaha, genius!
    As far as love goes, just act on instinct, do what feels like, etc. The usual, you know?

    Also, good for you not intending to ever go suicide on us. We can't miss you, really!

    But as you learned, acting on impuls, trusting people, etc, has its bright sides and may lead to something magical/awesome. Take chances, try to regain faith in people. It isn't all douchebags out there, we ain't all out to hurt your feelings!

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    1. The usual for me is what causes all the problems in the first place dude. If I act "normal" for me then I fuck everything up, and if I act different, and be impulsive, I fuck everything up.

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  10. Gonna listening to it tonight. :) Too many prying eyes at the office.

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  11. I loved this podcast!!
    First one I'm listening to. You voice was fine :)
    And the story was interesting, kinda sad but thank you for sharing it with us!

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    1. You are such a strong person Mark <3

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    2. Thank you very much :)

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  12. Interesting story, but like others have sad its pretty sad!

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  13. College is all about dropping out...at least my best days were.
    One day love will come along and hit you like a freight train...and I look forward to reading about it :)

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    1. I look forward to feeling it. I can say with pride and dignity I'm a two time college dropout. Most folks only do it the once.

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  14. Oh wow you sound really sick, get well soon!

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  15. Wow, it was brilliant to hear you speak so openly about your relationship. I am still struggling with a lot of problems that I have.
    You sound terrible...hope you feel better soon!

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    1. We all struggle with problems. One of the secrets to solving them is a good friend :)

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  16. Your voice sounds you still sick. But, I enjoy the podcast anyway! You seems like a good listener to someone's had problem. Good job, Mark!

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  17. DAMN bro...good thing that chick got the hell outta yer life. I always say there's a major difference between adultery and cheating - adultery is when all adult parties understand what's up and there's trust and love involved all over the place, y'knowwhatImean?

    Cheating, on the other hand, is a sickness that once a person is infected they can never get over it. If this chick was willing to try to "impress' some other dude that WASN'T you, then she simply didn't deserve you, bro.

    ...love pentagon...>XD

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    1. May you find yourself in one one day just to see how awesome they are lol. I think it's possible to be a compulsive cheater, there are some people out there that are.

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  18. I am glad you finally opened up about this past relationship. Not sure if it made you feel any better, but it allowed for me to understand you, and relate to you. I was in a two year relationship that I ended, and it took me four years to get over it. Eventually, I decided to deal with my mental demons. While the process kicked my ass, there was something so beautiful and empowering about it. I came to the conclusion that I didn't want to live with anger and pain, and that I was more upset with myself than I was at anyone I felt betrayed me.

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    1. I've only ever ended one relationship, and that was because I almost lost friends over it. It feels like so much wasted time, the getting over it I mean. I hate myself for enough as it is. I don't think I'm angry with her by this point, but even if I realise something, nothing really seems to change. I just think "so that's why I do that. Huh." then I continue to do it. I'm glad you were able to get over it though, and move on.

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  19. I didn't think you were old enough for uni. Figured you were younger than me since you are just learning how to drive.

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    1. At this point in my life if I had gone straight through college I'd be about half way through uni I think, or finishing, depends on the college and uni courses I took.

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  20. British accent FTW sir! I felt like I was listening to CNN or some kind of awesome news station. ha

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    1. I don't talk clearly enough for that.

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