First of all guys thanks for the responses to the guest post post. I'm looking forward to some guest posts, but I still didn't have anything for today. As such I decided to wait until I was at my most creative (it's a quarter past midnight while I'm writing) and just load up the interface and see what comes to me. Well partly that was also caused by me just not wanting to accept that I didn't have anything to write. I don't really like not having anything to write about, not admitting my faults.
It's kind of odd that for someone so self deprecating and self destructiveness to refuse to accept their own faults. I have them though, and I think I've gone into them enough as it is. Shame, I could have maybe made a post out of that couldn't I? I just don't like the idea of not being able to do something I know I can do really.
I accept that I can write, that I have random spurts of creativity and I act on them, and that I can do some decent things when I want to. I've managed to keep this blog going for like 8 or 9 months now, that's kind of hard to believe sometimes.
Is this the end of me? No, I don't think that at all. I know I still have it in me, it's just that for a lot of reasons I've kind of lost my mojo. I've been through some things personally, some of which I'm still going through. Usually when it feels like things are getting on top of me, I don't want to do anything. I still read your blogs mostly out of habit and commitment and a sense of duty, but I don't have anything really to write for my own. This is what caused me to ask for guest posts.
See, I'm not likely to take time off at all. Certainly not from reading anyway. Apart from one incident that was out of my hands last year I have always updated once a day for quite some time now, and much like The Deadman, my streak will not be broken.
I just need something to go right for me for once. Maybe something will.