Friday, 9 December 2011

I Can't Believe I Did That

Yesterday marked a pretty odd day in my life. I cleaned up. Voluntarily. I even tried to do a good job and hoover/vacuum up, but the thing wasn't working right so I couldn't :( I don't clean up all that much. I'm not very good at it, and I see most tasks as daunting and things I shouldn't try, especially cleaning. We recently got the house under control, and even though there is a lot of work left to do still, most of it was cleaned. But the memory of how bad it was is still fresh, so even though it's not a lot of mess, I still see it as it was.

By the end, I was worn out, but I did a good job, so that made me feel good. I had done something productive, something worth doing. I've been having trouble with that lately. I've been pretty depressed, and my writing has suffered because of it. Really I'm glad I only put any actual effort in four days a week what with Saturdays, Sundays and Mondays requiring little effort, but even so, it's getting bad.

I used to be able to just keep writing posts and I'd never run out, but eventually I did. Last week I was able to write enough to keep me going until today actually, that was a pretty good day for me. I don't know really what's wrong. Maybe reading a lot of other blogs is getting on top of me, but I don't think so, I don't read all that many. I read maybe 20 updates a day, it's not that much.

All I really know is that my writing is suffering and I'm in a doozy of a funk. I haven't even written that short story Fang asked me to, or even written anything new in my book. Still.

Gah.

Every time I get like this though, every time I think about changing the update schedule or anything, I suddenly get an influx of good ideas. Here's hoping it happens again. Either way it's Friday so I get to be lazy for a bit. Maybe that'll help.

34 comments:

  1. everybody goes through periods where they can't seem to write (for those of us trying to at least)

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  2. @J.Littlejohn Mine won't seem to end though lol.

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  3. Cleaning does give you a feeling of satisfaction, though we are still not tempted to try it more often.

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  4. Ok this is my 4th attempt to write this comment. My iPad doesn't like your energy saver thingy

    I have found that times when I am blocked, I give myself permission to take a few days off and before I know it, I am inspired. It happens to all of us and daily blogging can be hard work. It is unlikely you will lose any followers if you take a few days off to recharge.

    That said, I have some cleaning I need doing should you feel the urge again

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  5. @PeeVee Some people reckon the reason I can be so depressed is because my house is dirty lol, so it has long term benefits for me. Though yes, I am unsure when I will try it again.

    @Mynx Sorry bout that. It's one of the reasons a 3 day weekend helps me, like I said not a lot of effort goes in, and I get a few days break, and there's a lot less blogs to read too. I have enough cleaning of my own to handle thanks.

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  6. Cleaning is the bane of my existence. Blogger fatique is normal. Sometimes it helps to change things up, post something different from the usual format. I just did "Smut Week" and I had a great time. Best comments ever. Really livened up the place. Next week, I'll change things again. Keep it fresh and you won't get bored.

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  7. I always feel great after cleaning - so satisfying! And I couldn't think of any post ideas there for a few days - though I think I'm okay now for a week at least lol!

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  8. @Anne As much as I love smut I try to avoid it around here lol. I don't stick to a certain theme, so it can be kinda hard for me to just switch things up a bit. Thanks for the advice though :)

    @Hazel I have a lot if you enjoy it that much. You're not too far away either! Meh let's see what happens over the next few days.

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  9. I seriously commend you on being to consistently post something every single day.

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  10. GEEZ, I SURE DO GET A LOT OF MENTIONS IN YOUR POSTS

    But you and cleaning? Not something I had expected, to be quite honest. ;D

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  11. @R.gers Cheers, there are people who've been doing it longer than me, but with less content in their posts and more random posts. People who are able to post anything and everything that comes to them.

    @Fang Less than Hazel though, remember that lol. Mehhhhhh I'm not too big on cleaning, but I know it has to be done, and I do like things to be clean really.

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  12. Cleaning up? Voluntarily? You should go see the doctor.

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  13. @Shaw I'm surprised I haven't really.

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  14. I like being neat and tidy. I will say that I lose a lot of that motivation while at home with family because it becomes an uphill battle. The place only stays as clean as the most squalid person then you know?

    Just write about your philosophical thoughts maybe. I have views on a great many things that only make for good cocktail party topics or blog posts. And I don't go to many cocktail parties.

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  15. Why cleaning anyway? It will be dirty again! :P

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  16. Goold luck with the writers block

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  17. Writer's block is the bane of my existence. I hate it. So much. My recommendation is to just power through it, eventually it'll pass

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  18. I hate cleaning but I always feel so much better once it's done. :)

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  19. @Henry This house hasn't seen a womans touch in some time. Except for my nieces who just make everything dirtier. People do say that the mess of the place is partly at least, responsible for my lack of motivation. I can't think of philosophical points to ponder, as much as I enjoy doing that.

    @My 2 Pesos That is something I tend to think a lot.

    @Natural One Thanks, here's hoping.

    @Generally Disgruntled It'll pass, but it'll be back again, and I'll have to kick it in the balls again.

    @Interwebs Fails Not much.

    @Heaven. Same here. It just doesn't get done much lol.

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  20. This can be quite the thing, I am honest

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  21. Holiday season with family is usually a great source of material =P.

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  22. @Ipenka Hehe I don't spend all that much time with the family over the holidays. I get a few presents from them, have Christmas dinner with either my mum or one of my sisters, and then that's about it.

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  23. Yay you for cleaning! And I get the inability to write thing. I haven't blogged in a while o.O Well other than today.

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  24. @Jodie-Ann and that wasn't much other than "I can't think of what to blog" lol. I'm not a big fan of cleaning, but someone had to do it.

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  25. I'm I the only one that likes a messy environment? Yet likes cleaning? Well it gives you a sense of achievement esp if you've been playing games most of the day...
    I reckon you need a holiday, one that doesn't involve getting stuck in London again haha..
    when i got back from a holiday just a few days ago i felt different in a good way. Maybe it was the tan, idk.
    Even though you say your posts are going downhill, i actually missed reading them, strange..

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  26. @Caroline I don't know if you're going to subscribe and therefore see this but YAY YOU'RE BACK!!! Even if I could go on another holiday I'd just schedule posts for the time it was, and then go crazy reading updates after I got back lol. I'm glad you seem to have had fun on your holiday. I like mess, you can always find anything in a mess, but I appreciate the need for cleanliness. If you want to clean I have a lot of mess lol. Thanks for the kind words too. I'm very crazy.

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  27. Aw glad to be back, was actually trying to avoid Blogger because it can be quite unhealthy :P Naah I'm not gonna subscribe, playing FFVII again (best game ever btw).
    LOL true, I can just imagine you scrolling down the dashboard and then having a FML face xD
    Exactly! esp money but I know no matter how much I clean I'll just find small coins..
    hehe, likewise :)

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  28. Ohh i thought you meant gaming subscribe, yknow with WoW? but I wouldn't subscribe anyway cos you get so many comments lol

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  29. Oh one last thing, you did the energy saving mode thing! :D And that thing at the bottom is preetty neat

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  30. I'm getting so many comments because you're leaving three :P Blogger might be kind of unhealthy for you but not my blog. It can only be good for you. FFVII is a great game, and it's about time I got back to it. One of the best parts of cleaning is randomly finding money. You can always just unsubscribe after you read my reply and not be burdened with a lot of other comments :P I got the bar from Shaw, I think it's pretty neat too, but I doubt anyone uses it lol.

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  31. lol 3 out of 32 comments, what difference does that make? Mm yeah I guess, your one of the few ppl I follow that use proper grammar haha naah cbb if I put effort into a comment I'll usually just check for a reply - sounds kinda sad lol well i dont use it but ya never know

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  32. Well most of those are mine actually ha. I think it takes more effort to follow up in case a comment has been left rather than just subscribe and then unsubscrbe after or just delete the emails when you get them (the system I use).

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