While I have now taken to responding to comments in the comments instead of dedicating a post to them (that was a fun system, meant for another lazy day) occasionally one does come along that deserves it's own post. This is one such day. The comment in question was made by Anne on Saturday's post, in reaction to me yet again saying I was low on ideas.
"I've been reading you on and off for the past 2 weeks and you begin most posts with "This isn't going to be very good", "No one is reading/commening/followin" or "I'm out of ideas" I think these things are related. If as a writer you have no confidence and no ideas, it's time to stop for a while. I'm taking time off to go home to Ireland and I know it won't hurt my page. My readers will be here when I get back and I'll be fresh and have new ideas. Take a break, followers don't mean anything in the end, it's readers that matter."
My response was basically that I meant more that I was running out of pictures to post, so would need either more, or to post something else, and that I agreed that readers matter more. But I also said that I don't have confidence in much I do. If you know me, you'll know this to be true. But over time, while writing here, writing has become something I have become confident in. When I was at school while I was well spoken and had a big vocabulary, I wasn't very good at creative writing. If you had told me then that I would run a blog and post several short stories that receive almost nothing but positive criticism, I may have laughed.
This post is basically becoming the same as my 200th post, but it's still slightly different. I have managed to gain some confidence in my writing, and hey maybe I can make writing work for me. Part of me wants to compile my short stories into an ebook. Though I'm going to need more of them, so keep the ideas coming people!
As for not posting every day, or taking a break. Well, while the world may not end if I stop posting, it might, and I cannot take that risk. I just can't. There is an impossibly small (but still there) chance that God is not smashing everything because he reads here, and as such he knows that the world has to keep going, so that I may keep writing. I must continue as I am, for if I do not, not only will he lose interest, but he'll go all vengeful God on my ass. That won't be cool.
Now who says I lack confidence?